Going Crazy

Well we thought we were suppose to know something by Tuesday of this week because we sent our Dossier off last week. We were told that our facilitator would sub mitt it on Monday.
We have been waiting until tonight when we learned that our facilitator has not picked it up from U.P.S. yet???
I feel like time is against us now. We have a few pieces of paper work that expire on November 5th. We are so afraid that they will not get it in time and that we will have to re-do it all. That had been what has happened to us alot along this forever journey.
I have been so stressed out here that I am going in for an endoscopy on Monday to see if I have an ulcer. I guess its just a mixture of things.
My son has had alot of problems in school with disrespect. To me and my husband that is one thing we just will not accept is being disrespectful. I go nuts when I hear that MY son is getting into so much trouble. Everyone tells me its because he is adopted and because he didn't get enough love when he was born, but I would like to feel that we have made up for that. He was only 4 when we adopted him, and I know he was loved by his grandmother. He is a very small child for his age,so others say that is his issue?? I really don't know. I'm at the point now that I am going to see a therapist with him. I just really hope he is not acting out because of the adoption. He loves kids so much. He is so gental and kind to babies . He said he would have alot of them himself. I just keep praying that God will tell me what he needs to change this behavior.
On top of that I have this adoption that has just been taking way to long. I love these babies so much now that I just can not stand the waiting anymore. I so desperately want to be there to hold all of them at once!!!!
We have done all the shopping for clothes, and strollers, and cribs. It just sits there waiting.
So, that's where we are, just waiting. I guess it wont be until next Monday now that we have an answer. Time to put the other babies to bed!!